I think I have an idea...
My "Unbreakable" book that I've been working
on for a long time has always felt a little bit lopsided- like its not
finished...
I have realized that the abuse I have gone through has not only been on my
fathers side but also from the church.
It has not just happened to me, but to so many
others and more and more women EVERY day.
To tell the story of what
happened with Ordain Women, with my bishop, the Churches public
relations incredibly inaccurate (not to mention dishonest) statements, and all these amazing
women...and how my life led up to THIS... suddenly I feel that that is
what I need to do.
I was talking to my counselor today reading her my
blogs (I haven't seen her in a few months) and after reading them to her
she said "Heidi,you were born for this".
Ok God, I get it now...
With the
1500 hits in one day on a blog about why I left the church and now over
11, 000 my blogs have gotten (Not to mention the 260,261hits on my
profile page on Google) it tells me people are watching the Mormon
church very, VERY closely. This is only the beginning... they can't stop
this movement... No matter how much they want us to disappear.
I AM A SURVIVOR. I could have been one of the numberless child abuse victims that have been seen in the obituaries.I could have given in to the darkness that surrounded me at every turn. I could have taken my own life. (As I've said in a song I wrote called "If" "Should I let my father kill me, or should I do it myself?") The human spirit, no matter how much darkness there is, sometimes finds the tiniest bit of light in the darkest of places. I am Unbreakable.
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