Wednesday, July 23, 2014

The Palestinian Israeli conflict: Learn to SHARE

I get sent things to me to like Palestine, or to like Israel with his huge, horrible conflict. (Know I will like BOTH sides)

What I am in agreement with, on either side is that ANY loss of life is tragic.

There is SO much abundance, EVERYWHERE and it is sad when the lesson that is learned (And taught) is so much hatred on either side. ...that even adults in their 'wisdom" cant learn this simple lesson:

That there is enough for anyone, that greed hurts EVERYONE and that the world goes straight to hell when we are SO busy screaming "ITS MINE!" that we can't learn what we were taught as a child...to SHARE.


Tuesday, July 1, 2014

What Do Anita Moorjani, My Near Death Experience, Butterflies and Coming Full Circle Have In Common With Leaving The Mormon Church? (This title sounds like it should have a punchline :P HAHA.)




I have come full circle.

A month or so ago, I went to a conference with Wayne Dyer. He said life is either love or fear.

I think I have lived in fear for SO long.

In the Mormon Church it seems we fear everything.

We’re terrified!

Especially as women in the Ordain women movement, in or out.

 I experienced that fear first hand in a women’s class when the Stake President (A man in charge) sat in the Women’s class at church about the Priesthood (Which he never has done.) Women were tripping all over themselves making comments to make sure that he KNEW they weren’t like me. Especially when they were staring at me as they said their comments that at times seemed pointedly directed at ME.

We in the church fear EVERYTHING. We fear change, we fear God, (Even though we talk about his love) we even fear hemlines. I have seen the slight indiscriminate snotty stare any woman gets for having a hemline just a little too high. Or a little too low.

Heaven forbid they wear a tank top! WOW! (Ok now I’m rolling my eyes, but I have seen it!)

In this conference I went to, Wayne Dyer talked about people being afraid and fearful, and because of this, not realizing their potential. But LOVE… love changes everything! It opens us up! Fear closes us off. Love opens us up to anything.

At that conference love is what a woman named Anita Moorjani spoke of when she had her near death experience. Unconditional love is such a clumsy word for this world to try to explain a near death experience, but that’s as close to heaven as we get here. (If you are curious about my near death experience at 16 years old  it is here: http://songsofaletheia.blogspot.com/2013/03/strangulation-then-peace.html )

I bought Anita’s audio book and as I was coming home from the conference I listened to it. (I highly, HIGHLY recommend it- it blew my mind. Seriously. And I loved hearing her voice…there’s a peace in her voice I love)  http://www.audible.com/pd/Bios-Memoirs/Dying-to-Be-Me-Audiobook/B007VQ15LE?bp_ua=yes&mkwid=3SEtwpsL&pmt=b&pkw=_inurl:/pd/&source_code=GO1GB909GSH102413&gclid=CjgKEAjwuMmdBRDljdfi2_qQpxkSJADDCRws5hCyj92G_NWm0g_-Md5p_W5Kbe2awvorEqWQ0vx5ZfD_BwE

The thing that REALLY struck me was that her father was Hindu and had tried to force her into an arranged marriage. She ran away.

When she died she met her father (He had passed before her) and all of that didn’t matter. Religion didn’t matter; societal training and cultural beliefs didn’t matter.

All that mattered was LOVE. This amazing, bigger than life, bigger than all of us unconditional LOVE.

I KNOW this love.

Before she left heaven her father and best friend (Who had died months earlier) told her to go back and live life fearlessly. I think that’s beautiful.

The biggest thing she said she learned in heaven was that everyone has their own truth, and that you should never let anyone take that from you.

It’s funny she said that, because that has always been my philosophy. I wonder if that is because of my near death experience that I feel that way.
  
(There’s more she said that actually answered a very BIG question that I have had for years, but I’ll save that for another day.)
  
(Another couple of good books are “Proof Of Heaven” by a man who was an atheist who had bacterial meningitis of the brain- his brain was literally dead…and he came back believing in heaven… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOSb3G53HsA  you can hear his story on YouTube- and listen to the 5 hour book read also on YouTube, http://www.amazon.com/s/?ie=UTF8&keywords=embraced+by+the+light&tag=googhydr-20&index=stripbooks&hvadid=30368813935&hvpos=1t1&hvexid=&hvnetw=g&hvrand=8995284591167518618&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=b&hvdev=c&ref=pd_sl_g0txhimqr_b)


I was talking to a neighbor today who is Mormon and goes to my church and he asked me where I have been.. (I haven’t been to church in a month or so)I told him that I’m done going to a church where men in little rooms judge unrighteously. That the only judgement that I need is Gods, who really knows me.  He kept asking about Joe my husband, as if somehow our marriage must be in trouble when in fact, Joe honestly just doesn't like to deal with people and just doesn't want to go.. The truth is, there has been more peace in the house since we stopped going…this last year has been torture at church because of the behavior of the incredibly controlling Bishop. (My experience with that and what he did to try to control me is here::http://songsofaletheia.blogspot.com/2013/11/the-road-less-traveledmy-nightmare-of.html )  And the ridiculous things said by members, that would be here: http://songsofaletheia.blogspot.com/2014_06_01_archive.html  not to mention the gossip.

I kept telling that neighbor “I’m ok”, but he just didn’t get it. I felt the need to reassure him, I don’t know why other than I feel better than I ever have in my life, I fel free, FINALLY!  He told me to stop saying I’m ok, but I think in the end I said it more just because he told me not to:P

 I don’t know that he is so worried for my immortal soul that he just can’t help himself, but I don’t need him to understand. People need to look after their own souls, God knows me MUCH better than they do.

I know the nature of God. I don’t need someone who hasn’t had a near death experience or get it to explain Gods love to me. I know the churches doctrines, I’ve feel I've dug deeper in my study than most members seem to and I know what my truth is. Nothing else matters.

I feel that there is good reason this is the church of my abusive father (No wonder he chose the LDS church, its abusive practices towards women must have appealed to him)

I believe organized religion is men’s excuse to play God. I believe that God is ready to give us so much, but that we are the ones who aren’t ready.

Less than a week ago I was in a training meeting.That very morning  I had been in the shower at my best friend’s house from high school…I had jumped out of the shower, thrown my bathrobe on, ran out to the front room where Jennie was sitting and said “I want a butterfly tattoo!” I went to the space where I was being trained that week. I saw the receptionist, and on her arm, was a butterfly tattoo! (I call her butterfly Sam :)) I went out into the lobby after class, and suddenly saw I saw a butterfly that was flying around this 2nd story building inside the very room I was in. Here I was at my training watching a BUTTERFLY..

I look at butterflies as a sign of freedom, of rebirth…I have always seen butterflies when I’ve been bothered by something, it’s always felt like a sign of God’s love…and God knows what a free spirit I am.

I was frustrated talking to this neighbor today…he’s a nice enough man but he has his truth and I have mine: That SHOULD be ok. It was just annoying that I felt he was trying to correct me, shaking his head no at me as if I am wrong when I KNOW what my truth is and I don’t need to be corrected. I don’t need to be talked to like a child as if I don’t get it.  As I was talking to that neighbor telling him how liberated I feel, a butterfly flew right past us.

Just because he doesn’t understand, doesn’t mean God doesn’t.

Thank you God!

I think I’m going to get a butterfly tattoo…one with big ol curly black feelers and the word “FEARLESS” In big letters around it!

FREEEEEEEEEEEEDOM!


Friday, June 13, 2014

Why I Am Leaving The Mormon Church Despite Being A Faithful Member My Entire Life





I have always, ALWAYS gone to church, even most times when I'm sick. 



I have been faithful to the church my entire life...I've worn garments for 23 years (And was married in the Salt Lake Temple)... but...


I have already decided to skip Sundays whereas I have NEVER done that. I am now not going Sundays because of backlash from what has just happened to Kate Kelly And John Dehlin ( http://www.sltrib.com/sltrib/news/58062791-78/church-lds-kelly-mormon.html.csp)  as people were gloating before because of the Churches Public.Relations statements,  it will be even worse now.  If John and Kate are treated this way and the church gets away with it, there will be many, MANY more who get the same treatment behind closed doors.

If this excommunication really happens to Kate, John, and Alan Rock Waterman, among many others,  I'm leaving.

This is the Proverbial last straw.

 With the P.R statements, it has given members the excuse to treat others very, VERY badly. I know as I am one who has had to bear the brunt of it in my ward. They were treating me pretty well UNTIL that P.R statement. (http://songsofaletheia.blogspot.com/2014/06/my-trip-to-utah-with-ordain-women-april.html )
(The link is my experience at the Priesthood action April 5th 2014 and has links and near the bottom actual things they said in public relations statements from the church)

Since then, I have heard statements like "Well why don't you just leave", someone even saying to my husband " Shes beautiful but shes trouble" WITH ME STANDING THERE! What the HELL does that have to do with ANYTHING??? 

People walking past me in the halls with their noses in the air not saying hi...

The treatment stopped for a small time as I was asked to give a solo in church (I am a singer by trade) I sang "I Stand All Amazed" (Sally De ford version with the "Who Is This Man" part attached) and the treatment stopped for a FEW weeks. Fickle, FICKLE Mormons. But it started up again...mind you I wasn't stating how I felt about things in class, even sitting through a HORRIBLE lesson on Oaks talk (One on why women didn't hold the Priesthood)  where the Stake President SAT IN for the first time EVER in our Relief Society class- a womans class- (I think to MAKE sure I didn't say anything) I finally got up 5 minutes before class ended and left after a particularly rude comment with the person staring right at me as they said it.

For an excruciating, exhausting month last year, I was told that if I did not take my Ordain Women account down, that I would have my temple recommend taken away, PERIOD by a very controlling Bishop. I did not get angry at him, I kept my cool which was not easy under the circumstances but I had women all over the world fasting for me at the ordain women website.  I attribute the peace I felt that day I got my recommend taken away to those women. My recommend is now gone and there have been all kinds of rumors swirling around me in my ward that are untrue. I need to keep my peace of mind. God would not want this. Christ would NEVER excommunicate anyone. Christ would not strike a person from the temple, he would WELCOME them with open arms.

They think they can just take someone off Gods checklist? I don't think so. I have a very close personal relationship with God that they cannot touch, no matter what they do to me. And I don't have to be in a church that "PREACHES" free Agency but forces their members to comply to "Gods" will when it is only a man in sheep's clothing.

  We as women deserve to have peace of mind and not some closed door conversation with men about who and what we are supposed to be while going to church and have some sterile, controlling environment. We need WOMEN telling us who we are. not men. Its about time we are authentic by being true to who we are.


PERIOD.



(I am now adding an live interview with Kate and John for anyone interested in their experience. These are salt of the earth, decent people and I love them.  http://www.sltrib.com/sltrib/blogstribtalk/58056967-71/women-mormon-ordain-blogger.html.csp )

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

My Trip To Utah With Ordain Women, meeting Kate Kelly, The April 5th Priesthood Action, Church Shenanigans, And The Good Samaritan




 I hadn’t planned on going to Utah.

This blog has not been easy to write…Courage to stand up and say “I am here” to a church that doesn’t want you to stand up (and a Bishop that takes your recommend, spies on you through Google Circles where you toss him out, and then he tells you he's been reading your blogs as if you don't already know) but seemingly wants you to go away is painful. But once YOU stand up, suddenly, someone else is strong enough to stand where they may not have been strong enough to stand before. And with two, suddenly there are three, and before you know it, there is a whole sea of people who have strength to lean on each other where alone they may have fallen apart.

We need each other.

In October of 2013 there were 200 women who went to ask for admission to my churches Priesthood Session.

In April 2014, there were 510, and over 400 proxy (People who had submitted their names on paper)

How do I know there were that many? I was there.

I was handed a number as they were keeping tally. They announced the number.

That the number went from 200 to over 500 within six months is a tribute to a woman who I respect very much, Kate Kelly. In fact, I met her. A very warm and honest person, who gave me time to say hello to her and talk despite being busy getting ready for the action on Temple square. I love and revere, this brave, sweet woman who stood up when no one else would.

Now there are many.

My Journey to Temple Square had many detours…In fact; I hadn’t planned on going at all.

In the LDS church, we have conference twice a year. In that conference, we have Priesthood session which as of this moment, is only for men and boys. In October of last year, around 200 of my sisters from Ordain Women went to the Priesthood doors and requested entrance. I heard about it, I talked to my brothers and sisters online about it and I longed to be there, but I wasn’t able to go. I live at least 13 hours away driving.
What my brothers  and sisters did October 2013 in my mind is like bearing testimony with their feet. Telling them we are ready for the responsibilities of the Priesthood.

But my sisters were turned away. I wasn’t surprised. (Though I would have liked to be by them letting us in) BUT, with THAT said I was surprised at how the church treated my sisters. Telling them they were being divisive. di·vi·sive: tending to cause disagreement or hostility between people. As if they were trying to cause trouble to you know…just cause trouble?

With that said, Ruth Todd, the Public relations woman for the church at the time said "Even so, these are our sisters and we want them among us, and hope they will find the peace and joy we all seek in the gospel." (http://www.sltrib.com/sltrib/news/56963037-78/women-mormon-church-priesthood.html.csp)

The representatives of Ordain Women asked Ruth Todd if they could speak to a General Authority. She said she would get back to them. They sent several emails to Ruth Todd and they didn’t get an answer back. (Let me make it clear here that I am not a representative of ANY kind for Ordain Women… I just talked to them about it)

Then they learned that Ruth Todd left the P.R job and had a new job at New Skin. She was no longer the Public relations representative for the church.

Enter Jessica Moody (Jet on Facebook) and THIS

At first I felt I didn’t want to go after hearing about that nasty PR letter, then, this love I have for these women and how much I have been helped after everything I have been through just welled up in me and despite it all ,I just wanted to be with my sisters.

My daughter is graduating next year in the area, so I had thought I would wait and go the Priesthood action next April. But then I found out it might be the last time Ordain Women was doing it.

The LDS Public relations statement did two things to me…
At first, it made me want to stay at home MORE for Conference, in the comfort of my home. My husband and I sit on the bed, stay in our pajamas in the morning for a bit and watch conference on our big screen TV. We even have our own traditions. Breakfast in bed while watching conference, (How’s that for church?) Special traditions we have. It’s comfortable. It’s what my family has always done.

But I knew where I needed to be. So despite any fears I had, I went.

I hitched a ride with a woman and her family, driving to Portland from the Seattle area, and we drove to Utah from there. Many of the Ordain women troupe stayed at other O.W. members houses, who were generous enough to let us stay. After all, we were all standing together, why not stay together? 

Walking to Temple square I had many thoughts. So much had brought me here. So much pain. So much suffering. But I was not alone. 

First we went to the park across from Temple Square to meet and listen to the Ordain Women leaders.
As I listened to Kate Kelly’s speech, my heart just ached. For me, for my daughter, for all the women who know, and all the women who don’t know the churches history, and how as women we have moved backwards instead of forward. All because we have been silent. All because so many of we Latter day saint women haven’t dug into our past to see what has been taken from us. If we would only stop being so shallow and DIG deeper, we would see what we lost.

Kate Kelly’s speech

 “Welcome.
We have women and men from all around the country & all around the world. Alaska, Florida, Massachusetts, Oregon, Texas, Virginia. (And I am going to add Washington here J)
We have sisters from Germany & Brazil & New Zealand & Mexico City with us today.

Welcome to those of you who have traveled SO far, and particularly to those who have paid a high social cost to get here today.

I founded OW in January of 2013 because I have talents, abilities and capacity that are underutilized in the Church.

Before OW I was afraid to speak my truth. I was afraid to say what I really think. I was afraid to point out the obvious fact that men & women are not equal in our Church. And, it occurred to me that if, as well-educated, self-confident woman I was unable to say what I think, it must be extremely difficult for every Mormon woman who thinks like me to speak out. It is so hard to speak up when you feel alone.

I realized, I owe it to my sisters to tell the truth. I realized I have no right to remain silent. 
 I have no right to remain silent, because I have nieces, and loved ones who will grow up in the shadow of men in the Church. One day they will look up at the stand in this General Conference that we are about to attend and realize that men are “authorities” and women are only “auxiliary” to them.

I have no right to remain silent, because young Mormon girls are prepared for motherhood alone, while young boys are prepared for leadership positions and careers in addition to their parenting roles.
I have no right to remain silent, because I love this Church. It has helped me to know my Savior Jesus Christ. I have learned who I am and my divine parentage. I feel the Spirit every Sunday, and it keeps me coming back every week. I love this Church and I strongly believe that any institution that under utilizes the talents & abilities of 50% of its members can do better.

I have no right to remain silent, because the pain and heartbreak of gender inequality causes SO MANY of my Sisters to leave the gospel.

I have no right to remain silent, because I can see the gender inequality that exists in our Church. It is not invisible.

I am not invisible.

Now I know that there are hundreds & thousands of other people who can see it just as clearly as I can.
We are not invisible.

THANK YOU so much for being here today. It means so much. To me. To young women. And to our Church.

As we walk to the Tabernacle today, we will be reverent & respectful but we will not be silenced!

Then we sang the hymn “Come Come Ye Saints” and afterword’s they spoke the words to the hymn “Do What Is Right” and I couldn’t help it, I teared up. I had posted on a site how I would love hearing that hymn on that action day, and whether they did it because I had asked or not, I felt buoyed up. 

I remembered the feeling when my Bishop took my temple recommend, and how I felt God with me despite his unrighteous and controlling actions towards me because that song had played right before that interview in an answer to my prayers that month.(See that blog here: http://songsofaletheia.blogspot.com/2013/11/the-road-less-traveledmy-nightmare-of.html)God was telling me that I was loved, that I was doing what in my heart I know is right…and his answer was in that song.

As I walked with a close family friend to the Priesthood session, I wondered what would happen.

We walked to where the “free speech” zone is, I saw signs…a LOT of them. (Interesting enough, I did not see ONE woman there)

Suddenly I was being barraged by yelling men. One man kept screaming “GET BACK IN THE KITCHEN!!!” over and over as if he was on autopilot and I was a little afraid. But there were police telling them to leave us alone and not touch us so I felt safe.  But it’s funny, despite all that craziness going on around me, I felt peaceful. I turned to one woman and said “I was in the kitchen a few days ago and made fettuccine and chili, but he doesn’t get any”. Ha ha.

I saw the face of one of one angry red faced man screaming at us and I wondered; what could have happened to that man to make him hate Mormon women so much? 

Someone else was yelling “Jezebel”!!! (Which is my cats name, co-incidentally:p) and something else I couldn’t make out.

Suddenly as we were walking, it started to HAIL! I suddenly I felt I understood what God was trying to tell us; you need to gather around each other… you are UNIFIED and are here out of love, even for those women who want to stand up and be counted but who aren’t strong enough. For them, for their children, for their daughters who frankly, deserve better. We ALL gathered under umbrellas, jackets, anything we could and the spirit of sisterhood (and brotherhood (Thanks guys!) hit me in such a strong , strong way. The sense that WE are ALL connected working towards this cause I felt this sense of protection in the storm, literally and figuratively. It was beautiful. (Buuuut KINDA cold.;p)

Suddenly a reporter was asking everyone “What do you think of this hail”? And I thought “why are you asking me this”? Why don’t you ask me “why am I here”? Being my silly self in the hail I somewhat cheekily said in a silly southern accent “Ordain Women is goin to haaaaaaaaail”! and giggled a little bit. Until I thought “oh boy…my comment might start getting used any time they wanted to slam us” :p
But amazing how warm I felt, regardless of the storm. I had my sisters beside me. Maybe that’s why I felt it was ok and so I was allowed to be…well…ME.

I was far behind Kate Kelly, but suddenly there was confusion…the gate was locked and someone stated for all to hear that the gate was locked. I heard something about us maybe taking another route around, but suddenly, the gate was open and we went through.

There would be many people talking about how the gate opened, (And I heard a few different stories.. NONE by the way of Kate forcing her hand) but when I found out from Kate Kelly herself what really happened, I started to see a pattern.

A stranger, passing by, had been walking through temple square, simply opened the gate; and walked out. There was no forcing, no big scene. Simply put;

God saw we needed him, and he sent a stranger.

As we got to the standby line (Many of us cold and wet) a man rode by on a bicycle yelling “You don’t belong here”!!  A man with a young boy stood by us in line… I was trying not to look at him, but I think I heard him also say quietly something once to the effect that we "didn’t belong there" either and then he stopped. We were wet, downtrodden, sad, yelled at, but NOT alone. There was this amazing feeling of being ONE, of standing up together, not loudly, not with malice, but with love and grace.

Later on, I heard that a man came by and started giving out towels to the women who were soaking wet after that hailstorm. At first I thought that maybe he came out from the temple and had towels, showing that even though he didn’t agree with us, that they loved us, as we are his brothers and sisters. My mind was really going and hopeful on that one. But sadly, no they said, this man was a stranger. This compassionate stranger bought towels from the mall across the street for us (The mall coincidentally that the church owns and paid a lot of money for with our tithing dollars that they could use for a lot better things say…helping the POOR?)  And showed us kindness.

Again, God sent a stranger.

I noticed someone I respect very much, Debra Jensen was there to tell us to make sure we were up against the wall and two by two in the line, and not in anyone’s way, again, we were respectful and quiet waiting our turn to ask to be admitted to the Priesthood session…not an easy feat as there were over 500 of us, and there were some of our guys, making sure we were safe. (Thanks Revo!)

As I got to the front of the line I saw there was a woman there whose name was Kim. I heard her talking to someone and saying in pretty strict terms, that we now had a women’s conference and something to the effect that they should have watched that, and did they? The conversation seemed pretty terse, so I decided that because I had seen the women’s conference I would make sure I made the point to tell her that I watched it. 

My friend went through the line, and then it was my turn. I told her that “my friend and I saw the women’s conference, and that it was beautiful” and then I told her “there are so many reasons I am here…One is that women who are in the military off in the middle of nowhere where there aren’t any male Priesthood holders can’t have a meeting or sacrament because they don’t hold the Priesthood”(At this point, I saw this look in her eyes, I got the feeling that maybe that she hadn’t thought about that before and I saw her start to tear up)  I said “that by doing this, I am bearing testimony with my feet that we are ready for the Priesthood if the brethren should so declare it. I have been an active member all my life and love the church.”
She said to me "I can see that you are an active member and love the church, but you know you can’t go in". (I figured that would be the answer, but I think that for someone living in a bubble, she may have heard things she never had before, who knows what it will do. Maybe something, maybe nothing)

I heard later that this same woman stayed and listened to all 510 of us ask to be admitted, even after a man telling her she could leave. To her credit Kim said “If they have come all this way, I can stay and listen.”
The feeling that I got from her was of love and compassion, even though it was painful, even as she was turning us away.

Even as we were asking to be admitted, a church P.R statement was released, before we were even finished asking…it was shocking after the treatment we got from Kim. It was the exact opposite of what I experienced.

The church’s Public relations statement was this…

"Despite polite and respectful requests from church leaders not to make Temple Square a place of protest, a mixed group of men and women ignored that request and staged a demonstration outside the Tabernacle on General Conference weekend, refusing to accept ushers' directions and refusing to leave when asked," said Cody Craynor, spokesman for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
"While not all the protesters were members of the church, such divisive actions are not the kind of behavior that is expected from Latter-day Saints and will be as disappointing to our members as it is to church leaders," Craynor said.”

NONE of us saw ANY ushers… (Everyone I spoke to said they didn’t even see an usher) we saw Ushers on the other side of the building, letting the men in. No one asked me to leave, so we didn’t ignore ANYONE telling us to “leave when asked” because we were never asked. And telling members "This will be as disappointing to our members" just gives anyone the OK from the church to treat us badly. (I can tell you that the message got across because since then, I have been treated worse at church than before by the members.)

The only thing I can deduce from this is that they wrote this P.R statement BEFORE we even got there.

I can’t wrap my head around them lying about it. Is this the church of my youth?  How could it be that this church that has taught me to be honest my entire life cannot be honest itself?

I fear that the left hand doesn’t know what the right hand does…

When I lived in Rexburg Idaho, the local knowledge was they were always bringing in authorities and hiring them for a few years but actually the little guys were really in charge and directing things… and a few years later, they got rid of a clueless president and another one came in, just as clueless.

Is that the case here? (I am not saying that the Prophet is clueless…I believe he is called of God) but does everyone have all the information? Because from where I stood April 5th there was a LOT of love coming from Kim, but the exact opposite from that P.R statement. It was like a blow to the gut. Stabbed in the back. And we were stunned. All that love, and then, betrayal. It broke my heart.

Having the P.R. statement coming out AS WE WERE STANDING THERE is just odd…were they on their iPads, typing away? It was such a different experience than I had with Kim, the PR letter felt like betrayal…did Otterman write that letter and was it…deliberate?

A friend messaged me and told me I was on TV in Utah... that there was a major close up on my face hugging a friend who I haven't seen in years.... (This cheeky sister told me when we moved from our old ward that “you can't move... your vintage"! Seeing her again was like seeing a piece of heaven.)
 Then later my Sister in Law called my husband because she didn’t know I was involved in Ordain Women till she saw the news and me on it- and my father in Law called too…I guess I’m out. Now they know.

Not many weeks later and letters (2 of them) started coming with words like motherhood underlined in bold trying to put me in my place. Sorry, no man talking about motherhood can put me in my place, as, uh…you are not a MOTHER. (So, I wrote a blog) http://songsofaletheia.blogspot.com/2014/06/mother-hood.html

This is NOT  the church Christ intended it to be. Throw someone out of church for having thoughts that were different than the status quo? Christ CHALLENGED the status quo. (And no, Kate is NOT done this, she has only ever been respectful and asked them to pray about it)

This is not the church of my youth. Bigoted, UnChristlike, unloving, judging each other from the length of your clothes to policing every little thought in your head.

Or maybe I was just young and didn't know any better.

And I don’t think God cares about your underwear; I think he cares about your HEART.

Which is why it hurts.

And Jesus said "A certain man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and he fell among robbers, who both stripped him and beat him, and departed, leaving him half dead. By chance a certain priest was going down that way. When he saw him, he passed by on the other side. In the same way a Levite also, when he came to the place, and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a certain Samaritan, as he traveled, came where he was. When he saw him, he was moved with compassion, came to him, and bound up his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. He set him on his own animal, and brought him to an inn, and took care of him. On the next day, when he departed, he took out two denarii, and gave them to the host, and said to him, 'Take care of him. Whatever you spend beyond that, I will repay you when I return.' Now which of these three do you think seemed to be a neighbour to him who fell among the robbers?"He said, "He who showed mercy on him." Then Jesus said to him, "Go and do likewise."

These latest Public Relations statements (Along with Kate’s letter) from the church when so many are hurting is like throwing salt into a wound and digging in the knife. And then stepping aside, pretending you don’t see them, and acting as if you have nothing to do with it.

Even before April 5th the money came pouring in to help us all make it to the Utah action so those of us who could make it could be together. One man gave a very big sum to help us who wasn’t a member, a stranger..All together it was over $11,000

Like the Good Samaritan… God sent a stranger.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Going to Temple Square ( My trip to Utah to Support My Sisters Of Ordain Women) Blog will be up pretty soon

I have been working on a blog for a loooooooooong time about my trip to Utah to support my sisters of Ordain women... I'm about halfway done...I have a lot on my plate and am getting certification for my white belt to be a NIA teacher this month, so busy month... add to that myt 23rd anniversary and its REALLY busy,,,but its coming soon... heads UP! :)